its been over a month of not drinking. it caused problems with the one guy i care about more then any other. and i can do without and be really happy with myself. but i try to get though a night thinking it might really be over between us and what do i do. i take three shots and make myself a strong drink, wow im so great. and my friend is coming over and i know shes going to see it in my eyes. shit fuck!
i dont need you. believe me i would be fine without you.
i can go day by day and be okay with you not around.
i would find another guy sooner or later.
but thats not the point.
i want you.
even after everything you put me though.
even your friends wonder why i stay around. its cause i love you.
even after all the wrong. and that’s how i know its love. cause even after all the hurt. i look in your eyes when its just me and you and it reminds me of why i fell for you. laying in bed with you at night. you you wrap your arms around me it send chills down my spin. but you say you dont want anything and you still have her. ill sit and be your friend. and wait cause maybe youll realize one day everything i do for you and everything i feel. and maybe the day you realize i might be the one for you. ill be gone cause i realized i deserve better then you.
